Celebrate the Small Things 26-6-26

 

It's the end of the week, so what am I celebrating?

It's the weekend!

It has been a busy week, so I'm glad to have some time out.  I also have the house to myself for the whole weekend because my son has gone to Sydney for a few days and my partner is housesitting up the coast.  Luxury!

Unfortunately, we're in the throes of a winter storm and it's wet and windy and freezing cold.

I finished the last story in the anthology.  It needs a little work, I think, but all the stories probably need a little tweaking and changing to make them work.  I plan to get this work done over the weekend so the collection is ready to be judged from the end of the month.  I did have a quick peek at the other entries yesterday, just to see how many people are close to the finish line, and it looks like quite a few writers might have fallen by the wayside.

I was long listed in the Australian Writer's Centre Furious Fiction Showcase for the third time this year, which is nice.  I really enjoy this super-short flash fiction contest once a month.

I had a rejection on a partial for A Stranger to Kindness which is disappointing.  I think it's time to stop querying this one.  Clearly no one is interested in this story.  Which is a real shame.  I still think it's the best thing I've written.  And I really feel like Street Smarts is going to be an even tougher sell, if I ever get to the point of querying that one.  I think I need to restructure it a bit so Arlo and Devon meet sooner than they do now.

What are you celebrating this week?

Books I've Read: Hood

 

I have to admit I found this one a bit of a slog to get through.  Maybe it was because I was on tour when I was reading it and consumed it in tiny bites, but I suspect I just didn't enjoy it much.

Set across a variety of different time periods, the book follows Pen through the week directly after her lover of 13 years is killed in a car crash.  Not that Pen has ever really admitted to anyone that Cara was anything more than a friend.  Still largely closeted, she teaches at the Catholic school she and Cara once attended, lives with Cara's father in the home she grew up in and hasn't even told her mother she's gay.

This makes grieving challenging.  How can you be a widow when you've never admitted to being in a relationship?  

Pen navigates the week as best she can, doing all the practical things she can to distract herself from the 
Cara-shaped hole in her life.  Yet, occasionally, memories bubble up and blindside her.

These flashbacks show the relationship through the 13 years the two women knew each other.  It becomes clear that Pen was actually obsessed with Cara's older sister, Kate, and only met Cara when Kate tossed a casual invitation Pen's way one afternoon.  Thid history makes things charged when Kate returns from America to attend Cara's funeral.

I know this book is set in a different time, and in Dublin where the influence of the Church is far-reaching, but even with that knowledge, I found it difficult to understand Pen's reluctance to admit she was in love with Cara, that they were a couple.  Or that everyone around them didn't see the truth, especially Cara's father who shared the house with them and surely knew they were sleeping in the same bed.

Pen is stoic to the point of obstinance and I think that's why I found it so difficult to get into this story.  Cara was clearly not a nice person, running out on Pen often to have affairs with men and other women.  Yet Pen remained a dependable presence, always there to take Cara back when she'd had her fun.

So, while I found many things about this book interesting, it wasn't an enjoyable read.  I didn't like Pen and the way she let herself be treated like a doormat, denying who she was and constantly putting herself down for being large.  Books about grief and dealing with it are hard enough even when the person grieving is someone you like.

I did find it interesting how the flashbacks were told in present tense though, while the rest of the book was in past.  Something to play with at some later point, I think...

I'm not recommending this one, I'm afraid.  It's well written and a definite picture of a place and time, but it's hard work to get through.

Don't just listen to me though.  Here's the blurb:

Penelope O’Grady and Cara Wall are risking disaster when, like teenagers in any intolerant time and place—here, a Dublin convent school in the late 1970s—they fall in love. Yet Cara, the free spirit, and Pen, the stoic, craft a bond so strong it seems as though nothing could sever it: not the bickering, not the secrets, not even Cara’s infidelities.

But thirteen years on, a car crash kills Cara and rips the lid off Pen’s world. Pen is still in the closet, teaching at her old school, living under the roof of Cara’s gentle father, who thinks of her as his daughter’s friend. How can she survive widowhood without even daring to claim the word? Over the course of one surreal week of bereavement, she is battered by memories that range from the humiliating, to the exalted, to the erotic, to the funny. It will take Pen all her intelligence and wit to sort through her tumultuous past with Cara, and all the nerve she can muster to start remaking her life.

Weekly Goals 23-6-26

 I wrote another story for the anthology yesterday afternoon.  I'm not sure it's any good, or if it fits the theme of the song very well, but we'll see.  I have one more to go to finish out the collection and I hope to get through that one on Friday when I have the day off.  Which gives me the weekend to read through and edit the whole lot.

The thing that's impressed me the most most about writing these stories is how easy it has been to just sit down and bash out around 2500 words in three or so hours.  I think having a deadline helps.  I've had no real idea what these stories were going to be until I sat down to start writing, and the writing has just flowed.

I wish writing a novel was so simple.

I need to think about wha I'm going to work on next.  I might take a couple of weeks off from writing anything other than my little flash fiction pieces.  The Film Festival is coming up and I'm heading into a super busy time at work, so probably not the best time to start a new novel.  But sometimes I find being so busy is a great time for being creative because everything is already at kind of a peak.

I guess I'll wait and see if anything grabs me and demands me to write it.

What ar your goals this week?

Celebrate the Small Things 19-6-26

 

It's the end of the week, so what am I celebrating?

It's the weekend!

I didn't get much of a weekend, so I'm looking forward to this one.  Even if I do have quite a lot on already.  

I have two more stories to write for the anthology, so I'm hoping to get one of those written this weekend.  I have next Friday off work, so I'll get the last one written then, and hopefully have a little time to go back through the whole lot and do some editing before the 30th.  

It has been an interesting project.  I like some of the stories more than others, but overall, I'm quite happy with them.  They've given me a chance to explore different topics and voices and styles.  I don't know what I'll do with them once the competition is over, but we'll see what happens.

I guess once I've finished the anthology project, I'll need to start thinking about writing a new novel.  I still have an idea, but it hasn't fully come together yet.  I have an interesting main character, but none of the other parts of the story or other characters have revealed themselves, so I'll need to wait for that to happen before I can do much more than noodle around with the voice and stuff.

Or wait for another idea to grab hold.  That often happens when I'm noodling.

What are you celebrating this week?

Books I've Read: Fugly

This book was not what I expected at all.

The main character is Beth, a first-year university student, still living at home.  She's fat and from the very first page you understand how being fat makes her feel.  She's angry at herself for being fat, but also hates the way people look and act around her because she's fat.  She has an unhealthy relationship with food and no one is looking out for her at all.

Her father recently left and her mother is suffering from depression as a result.  Her younger brother is running wild and no one is doing anything about it.  The only thing that makes Beth feel better (other than chocolate) is going online and trolling girls whose feeds are full of themselves being happy and beautiful and thin.  When she gets someone to delete their account, she feels powerful.

While online, she meets Tori who is even more vicious when it comes to trolling.  She and Beth team up and find they make a great team, eviscerating beautiful people with abandon.  They chat and share and Beth soon realizes she's falling in love with this person who calls herself Tori.

But then there's the relentlessly perky girl at Uni who keeps talking to her too.  Never having had friends, Beth isn't sure how to react to this, but she likes it.

So, when Tori picks a target that's a little too close to home, Beth decides she needs to stop her trolling.  But, Tori doesn't want her to stop.

I have to say, rarely have I disliked a main character more than I disliked Beth.  From the very first page I thought she was whiny and all too ready to blame everyone else for her unhappiness.  Throughout the book she makes the absolute worst choices for herself and while I understand that the author was doing this to show the depths of her self-loathing, it didn't feel realistic.  I think even the most depressed person has some tiny well of hope in there somewhere.

So, reading the whole book and spending time with this awful person was hard.  Yes, se did learn some things about herself and made changes, but I feel like a lot of it was too little too late.. By the time she made those realizations, she was so deep in the mess she'd made for herself, I didn't feel like she really deserved any redemption or even a semi-happy ending.

So, unless you really want to spend time with someone who makes other people miserable, this is probably not the book for you.  I does offer some insights into a modern problem, but it isn't an enjoyable read at all.

But don't just listen to me.  Here's the blurb:

A wrenchingly honest, thought-provoking exploration of a girl judged and dismissed by society who must break the cycle of shaming that traps her in her real life and comforts her in her online one.

In real life, eighteen-year-old Beth is overweight, shy, and geeky. She's been bullied all her life, and her only refuge is food. Online, though, she's a vicious troll who targets the beautiful, vain, oversharing It Girls of the internet. When she meets Tori, a fellow troll, she becomes her online girlfriend-slash-partner-in-crime.

But then Tori picks a target who's a little too close to home for Beth. Unsettled, Beth decides to quit their online bullying partnership. The only problem is, Tori is not willing to let her go.

Weekly Goals 15-6-26

 I just realized when I opened up my blog this morning, I missed last week's regular posts.  I was away for work, and it was busier than I anticipated.  I didn't have time to even think about my writing life, really!

But, since I got back late on Saturday, I have managed to write a new story for the anthology.  That leaves me two more to write before 30 June.  Doable, I think.  I'm just concerned I may not get much time to go back over them, to check if they actually work together and if they are actually any good!

On the plus side, with having been away and doing so many extra hours, I'm owed a lot of time off.  There's never a really good time to take it, but I may try and take a little each week for the next few weeks so I can have that editing time I need.  Starting with taking half of Friday off.  I'd take the whole day, but I remembered I'm teaching a lunchtime class in town, so it doesn't really make sense to do that.

So, my goals for this week are to catch up on the stuff I didn't manage to get done while I was away and to write at least one more story for the anthology.  I also need to catch up on reviews for the others in my crit group.

what are your goals this week?

Weekly Goals 8-6-26

 I'm away on tour for most of this week, so I'm not going to set myself a ton of goals - I probably wouldn't hit them.

I managed to write another story for the anthology over the weekend.  I'm not sure it's very good, but again, a place to start.  I have three more songs to write stories for, so I'm no track to finish by 30 June if I write one a week.  I think I'll try to take a day off during the last week of June to do some serious editorial work on these stories before the final due date.

So, this week's goal is to write another story.  I think this one is the one I've been looking forward to writing the most and I already know exactly what I'm going to write.  Most of the others haven't been planned at all and I've just gone with whatever my mind came up with at the time.  My mind is a dark and spooky place sometimes.

I may discover I have more time than I think on the road, and I may get more done than I think I will.  But I'm not counting on it.

I am looking forward to catching up with my bestie in Auckland on Friday though.  It's been far too long since we got to talk for more than a few minutes.

What are your goals this week?