The website for young adult author Kate Larkindale. A place for her musings on writing, publishing and a day job in the arts sector.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Revision
Getting a fresh pair of eyes on your work is always important. You get so close to your writing that it is near impossible to see what may be right in front of your face after a while. Also, if, like me, you've cut things out, added new things in, changed the order of events or anything like that, it's difficult to remember exactly what is in this version of the book. A fresh pair of eyes can point out where you mention something that you've never mentioned before, an inconsistency you may not have noticed.
So, even now, with what I consider a completed manuscript, I will be revising. A book isn't finished until it is printed, bound and on the shelf. I know that. Once you land that elusive agent, they will probably ask you to revise some more. Then if your book sells to a publisher, there will be more editing. And more editing. And then probably a bit more. So, revision is important, and if you're not willing to do it, I'd suggest giving up on being a writer.
For those of you who are revising, I heard yesterday about a contest where the prize is a substantial manuscript edit by a professional editor. I know I'm going to try to win it, but are you? Here's the link: http://www.camarshall.com/2010/06/celebrate-with-me-free-substantial-edit.html
Big thanks to Janice for her comments. I'm off to switch some words around now, to see if I can clean up those little messy bits.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Chapter 1
Tomorrow we can look at what people come up with.
NOW
He’s going to call on me, I think. He’s going to call on me and I’ll probably puke. There are only twelve of us in this class. Seven boys and five girls. So it will not take too long before it is my turn to present my work in progress. Work in progress? So far I’ve made no progress on this so-called work. I have no idea how to start writing this. We were given the assignment almost three weeks ago and I have been putting it off ever since. Now my tutor is expecting something. A draft perhaps, or at least a detailed outline. But I have nothing. So here I am, sitting in class, working knots out of my long, red hair as I think about it. Above me a near-dead fluorescent tube hums and buzzes, disrupting my chain of thought. I have been thinking about it a lot, and the more I think, the more certain I am that the beginning was long before I ever imagined. Perhaps even before I was born.
I pray that the class will end before Ian reaches me. I even pray for Alice Wilkins to be called on before me. Alice, with her long-winded explanations and incessant questioning, her interminable need for assurance and approval. Usually it bugs me, the way it bugs almost everyone here, but today I would welcome it. It may be the only thing that saves me from humiliating myself.
I feel terrible about being unprepared. This is my favorite class. This is the reason I’m here, at this particular university. It’s a very competitive course to get into and I was extremely surprised to have been accepted. It’s not unusual to have to apply more than once; several of the other students tried two or three times before getting in. I’m the only first-year student in the class, something I initially found intimidating. Ian McCollidy is the reason for the class being so popular. He’s the tutor. If the name sounds familiar it’s probably because of his first novel, Snowshoes. It was published about ten years ago to great critical and popular acclaim. I read it for the first time four years ago, when I was fourteen, and loved it so much that I have re-read it at least once every year since. Neither of the books he has written since has been so ecstatically received, but he is still very highly regarded in literary circles. I liked both those books myself, but neither affected me in quite the same way that Snowshoes did. That was the book that made me want to be a writer. Ian has been teaching here for seven years now, and almost all the graduates of his class have achieved some success as writers.
I want that success too. I want to be a writer more than anything. Writing is the only thing I’ve ever been good at. Words, putting them together on a page, telling stories or painting pictures with them, it’s what I do best. I was twelve when I discovered the power of words. We had a substitute teacher for a week and he made us write every day. A few words of praise for a stupid little story about a stolen car, and I was hooked. Since then, I’ve written almost compulsively, filling pages and pages with what I’m sure is mostly very bad writing. Yet I got into this course, so I have a spark of hope that maybe I have talent, that maybe I can become a real writer. That spark of hope is spluttering a little now though. The first semester taught me how little I actually know, and this latest assignment has me completely blocked for the first time I can remember. I can’t seem to start anything else either. Usually if I get stuck on something, writing another piece, something completely different, will un-stick me. This time nothing’s coming at all, and that terrifies me.
Luke Stanford finishes his stammered presentation. He writes beautifully, but whenever he is asked to read his work aloud, or present an idea to the group, he stutters, mumbles and comes across as barely articulate. He’s not the only one either. I can see Ian scanning the rest of us, choosing who will be next. I glance quickly around too, trying to see if there is anyone else as uncomfortable as me. I catch the eye of a boy sitting off to the side of the boxy, windowless room. Of all the people in the class, he is the one I know the least. He wasn’t here last semester; rumor has it that he did the first part of the course last year then got called away from school for some emergency. That Ian likes his work enough to let him back in, halfway through the year, says something. I have yet to read anything of his. This assignment is the first and only thing we’ve had to do this semester. All I know about him is that his name is Mark, but as he stares across the room at me, I also know he has the most beautiful blue eyes I have ever seen. Well, eye. I can only see the left. The other is obscured behind a curtain of thick, blond hair that hangs down over his face.
Thankfully Ian does not call on me. When class ends, feeling drawn to Mark, I linger just inside the doors until he and I are alone in the room. This isn’t like me. I don’t initiate. But there is something about Mark that intrigues me and I can’t help wondering if maybe doing something different, completely out of character, might get the words that are stuck inside me flowing again.
Standing next to him, I’m suddenly aware of how tall he is. I look up at him and find those impossibly dark blue eyes upon me. When he moves, his messy, too-long hair falls away from his face and I can see the scar that twists the right side, from above his eye to a point almost in the centre of his chin.
“Hi,” he says. “I’m Mark.”
“Hi,” I reply, and before I even think about it, “I’m Casey.” I’m surprised as soon as I hear myself say it. Only my family and people who have known me since childhood call me Casey. Since I started high school I’ve been trying to get people to call me by my real name, with varying success. My full name is Kiersten Charlotte and my family always called me by my initials, KC. There is something about Mark that seems very familiar, putting me instantly at ease. It is as if I already know him, although I have never even spoken to him until now. I think this is what makes me give him my childhood nickname.
“Hi Casey.” He smiles. “Have you got time for a coffee?”
The sun is shining as we stamp through the snow to the café on the far side of the quad. It’s still very cold, but after endless weeks of steel gray skies, snow and freezing temperatures, the sunlight holds the promise of spring. Mark pushes the door open for me, letting a blast of warm air out into the cold. The café is crowded as always, but we manage to find a table by the windows and peel off several layers of clothing before going to get mugs of the thick, evil black coffee they serve here.
“You seemed a little uncomfortable back there,” Mark says as he settles himself into his chair. “In class, I mean. You haven’t written much?”
I give him a wry smile. “Much? I haven’t even started!”
“No, me neither.” Mark returns my smile. “What are you writing about?”
“My family. But I can’t figure out where to start.”
The assignment is to write something autobiographical. That part is not too difficult. The hard part is that Ian has asked us to write about something that changed our lives, something of real significance. He said that he knew it would be difficult for some of us. I’m not sure he realized quite how much.
“I know what you mean.” He looks directly at me and I see the enormous sadness shadowing his eyes. “I’m trying to write about my family too.” We sit in silence for a long moment and I wonder if his family is as messed up and crazy as my own.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Let's get interactive.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Amazement
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Saturday night at the movies
The flow tonight was odd. The sessions that went in around 5pm were busy. That's not too unexpected. 5pm is a good time to see a film if you have plans later in the evening, or even if you just want to go out for dinner afterward. Choosing films that will work in this time slot is never too difficult. The sessions that went in around 7pm tonight were also, with one exception, busy. But that time slot tends to be. The older people like that time slot because they won't be out too late. My cinema is located right in the middle of the party zone, and a lot of our older audience prefer to get out of Dodge before things get too messy. I have to admit, I agree. Leaving at 3am is.... well... an experience. Not one I want to have too often.
But I digress. Where tonight was odd, was in the later sessions, those that went in around 8.30pm. This is a trend I've been noticing the past few weeks, and have been experimenting with putting different films into those later slots. But nothing seems to work then. Every cinema I've worked in before, those 8-9pm slots are the busiest on a Saturday. But not here.
Is it the weather? In the summer those slots were busy, but then, the earlier ones were less so. Perhaps in the cold, wet, windiness of winter, people don't want to venture out to the cinema later in the evening. Or perhaps they get so comfortably ensconced in whatever bar or restaurant they've chosen for before their movie, they forget to leave. Some weeks I can blame sports events for the lack of customers. A rugby game on a Saturday night pretty much takes everyone off the streets until it's over. I know, it's a sorry state of affairs.
Perhaps the films are the problem, yet I can't see that. The three films programmed into those slots were all edgy films that would appeal to sophisticated audiences or students. Yet did they come? No. In fact, I have noticed the number of student admissions dropping over the years, probably as a result of digital downloading. But we won't get into that here because I could rant for hours on that subject.
I wrote a draft of next week's schedule yesterday, but because I worked tonight and saw the people coming and going, smiling or frowning, I will rewrite it. And maybe next Saturday night we will have a few more people to our 8pm shows.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
First impressions
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Procrastination
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
A little premature perhaps?
That's the thing about rejections, especially the terse form rejections that are the norm from most publications: you never know what it was they didn't like. A few publications are good enough to give you a personalized response, a few lines telling you what they feel was wrong with the piece. Sometimes that's helpful, in fact, often it is, especially if you plan to submit something else to that venue. You have a better feel for what it is they want. Unfortunately, most places don't.
So we keep going, searching for the perfect venue. Do we go for the one that pays the most? Or the one with the most prestige? Do we try one with a high acceptance rate, just to boost our ego? I'm guilty of that, I have to admit. After weeks of rejection after rejection, I submitted a story to a venue with an 80% acceptance rate. And surprise, surprise. I was accepted.
But you know what? It felt cheap. I knew, even then, that I was better than that. Easy is easy for a reason, and when you see your story, something you slaved over, ensuring each comma, word or phrase was perfect in print next to another story with spelling and grammar mistakes sprinkled liberally throughout, you know it wasn't worth the little thrill of seeing the word 'accepted' in your in-box.
These days I only go for the tough ones. And that's probably why it's almost always a rejection. Maybe I'm wrong in thinking this way, because I don't exactly have a huge body of published work behind me, but I'm not in this for a one night stand. This is what I want to do, and I'm serious about it. Getting a credit for the sake of getting a credit isn't part of that. If it's not a good credit, well, I'm not sure I want it.
Does that make me a snob?