Dear Me,
It’s now
mid-January, so I’m a little late writing this annual letter to myself. But I have a good excuse because before the
New Year hit I was writing a novella to deadline and I went away on holiday
right afterward and didn’t take my computer with me. So here we are...
For those
of you who haven’t followed me through this annual ritual, each year I write a
letter to myself outlining my goals for the year ahead. Around mid June I check in on it to see how I’m
tracking, and then again at the end of the year.
Before we
look at the year ahead, let’s just take a moment to reflect on the year just
gone. For the last couple of years I
have struggled a little as a writer. After
23 years working as a cinema manager, I moved into a new role which has evolved
to a point where much of my day is spent writing, editing and otherwise
wrangling words. While I have learned an
enourmous amount doing this, and really enjoy the work, I often find myself
completely depleted by the end of the day and unable to find the energy or
inspiration for my own writing.
Learning to
accept that I’m not able to be as prolific as I used to be has been a
challenge, but I think I am now at peace with it. It means that any opportunity I have to write
is all the more precious. And toward the
end of 2019 I think I fell back in love with writing after being somewhat
disenchanted with it for a time.
So my main
goal in 2020 is to keep being in love with writing and to keep doing it
whenever the opportunity arises. I think
perhaps I have given too much weight to publishing novels over the last few
years, and while I still want to write and publish my books, I also want to
explore other opportunities.
I have
always written short stories, and have a pile of good ones just sitting there,
waiting to be published. So this year I
plan to do some writing and submitting of short stories as well as continuing
to write and submit novels.
I also
still have several finished, almost-finished and partly finished novels sitting
on my hard drive. Some of these are
really good and I need to get them to the point I can send them out to
publishers etc. In 2019 my goal was to
finish all these books too, but I only actually got one finished and sent out
during the year, despite my best intentions.
I’m still waiting to hear back about that one too, so we’ll see...
There’s a
contest I’m hoping to enter too, and it closes in early February, so I’m
working to get another one of those unfinished/almost-finished books ready to
send out. I’ve changed my mind a few
times about which one to work on, but I think I’ve landed on the right one for
this particular contest.
Once that
one is done and out the door, I have notes from critique partners to address on
two other books. Plus two other books
that need endings. One of these I really
like, but I struggled for months last year over how to end it. I’m still not 100% certain I know what to do
with it, but I’m determined to figure it out because I really love the book and
its characters.
The other
things I’d really like to try and tackle this year are writing a novel based on
my “beach house” series of short stories, and attempting my first novel for
adults. I have a loose kind of outline
for the adult novel written and I had planned to write it during NaNo in
November, but chickened out. So I wrote
something else during NaNo while I started reading more adult books to try and
figure out how the tone of voice is different.
Hopefully I’ll feel ready to write this story this year. It’s one that’s been hanging out in my head
since about 2010...
On the
non-writing side of things, I plan to keep exercising regularly. While the weather is good and daylight saving
keeps the evenings light enough, I will keep riding my bike to and from work as
much as possible. Once the weather
turns, I will get back into going to the gym at lunchtimes as often as I
can. And I will keep going to my
Saturday morning spin classes every week because I enjoy them, even after 10 or
so years.
My younger
son starts high school this year and I think he’s going to find it quite
challenging. I want to be available to
him if he struggles and find ways to help him settle in, make new friends and hopefully
find something that interests him (other than video games).
And I think
that’s about it. I know I should
probably make some kind of goal around being kinder to myself or taking time
out for me, but writing time is “me time” and as long as I can have a bath each
night and read a book while I’m soaking, I’m happy.
What are
your goals for the year?
Love, Me.