Friday, August 2, 2019

Celebrate the Small Things 2-8-19




This post is part of Lexa Cain's blog hop, Celebrate the small things. Head on over there to sign up!

What am I celebrating this week?

Actually managing to get some work done on the book even while going to a lot of films. Although I have a feeling this weekend is not going to be productive at all in that area because I have two films to see each day and I still need to clean the house and cook and all those other things...

But first, a little recap of the films I've seen since Monday.

Non-Fiction: a French film about a bunch of people working in the publishing industry having affairs with each other.  This was very French, but not actually all that interesting.

Vivarium: An Irish film that was part satire about the housing crisis and some of the failed solutions Ireland tried, and part nature documentary.  I know it sounds weird, and the film is weird.  But it's also really good.  Really clever use of sound to keep the atmosphere just that little bit off.

In Fabric: Another peculiar film, this time about a haunted dress and the very odd department store that sells it.  I guess this was kind of a horror, but it was also very funny as well as being rather unsettling.  Kind of like The Red Shoes, but with a dress....

Mid90s: Jonah Hill's first film as writer-director is set in the mid-90s and follows a group of teenage skateboarders as they create their own messy little family to make up for their own families who failed them. I enjoyed this one, particularly the soundtrack.

I'll catch you up on Monday on the weekend's offerings.

What are you celebrating this week?


Tuesday, July 30, 2019

Books I've Read: Addiction


I really didn't like this book.

Hannah is a good girl who falls into a really creepy, controlling relationship with a drug dealer who becomes obsessed with her.  This was the first part of the story that really didn't work for me.  Hannah is a smart girl with a loving family and good friends.  When creepy Edgar starts following her around and insisting she ride in his car, I couldn't believe she wouldn't have said something about it.  Or called the police.

But no.  She starts 'feeling things' for this guy who is essentially stalking her.  And her best friend, despite noticing she's acting weird and disappearing a lot, doesn't even do anything about it, apparently too wrapped up in her own new boyfriend.  Then Hannah goes on a date with Mr. Creepy just to get him off her back.  And he drugs her and she becomes a sex maniac.  In this scene, I was sure he'd dosed her with Ecstasy, but apparently liquid meth is even better at making you horny for a guy you barely know and don't like to the point of tearing your clothes off and basically raping him.  Despite being a virgin with no experience.

The whole Edgar-Hannah relationship was unbelievable.  Any modern girl would be far too savvy and clued up to fall for his brand of bullshit.  It only becomes believable once he's got Hannah hooked on meth and dependent on him to supply it.  And once she's there, he starts using her for all kinds of other things that she doesn't fully understand because her brain is so fried from the meth.

The rest of the book follows Hannah through her addiction and the delusions it gives her.  It doesn't shy away from the terrible things she does and says to people, or the things she does to herself.  And this part of the book was at least a little more realistic than the earlier part.

Overall, this was probably a fairly realistic portrait of meth addiction, but the way Hannah fell into it did not feel realistic at all.  It's far more likely that a girl like Hannah would have been given a taste of it at a party or some other gathering of people her own age.  The way Edgar pursued her and groomed her just felt so wrong, and her reaction to it made no sense.

So I won't be recommending this one.  It seems I'm in the minority - this book has a lot of great reviews from other reviewers - but I'm sticking with my assessment.

But don't just listen to me.  Here's the blurb:

Meth, crank, ice, glass, fire, tina, chalk, crystal or crystal meth.
Whatever you call it, it’s the same thing. Addictive.

Drugs ruin people’s lives.
I should know, they destroyed mine.
I’m Hannah and I got hooked on ice. What started as a trickle, ended with a tsunami washing everything away; my family, my life.
I’m not sure you’re ready to read my story; it’s real and confronting.
Open the book, read the pages and see how easy it is for anyone to get addicted.
Ice affects all types of people. It doesn’t discriminate.
It will SCREW. YOU. UP.

Sunday, July 28, 2019

Weekly Goals 29-7-19

I'm not going to have a whole lot of spare time this week because of the film festival, so my goal is just to keep working on the book whenever I can.  I think I've made it through the really tricky part, so now it's just tying up all the little things that those changes will have made in the rest of it.

And then the final pass through to add in small details and make sure that it all makes sense now it's been ripped apart and. put together again.

And of course, my other goal is to go to all my films and enjoy them.

I've seen two more since we last met:

Yuli: A bio-pic about Carlos Acosta, a ballet dancer from Cuba who became a worldwide ballet star.  Interestingly, this was kind of a reverse Billy Elliott in that young Costa (called Yuli by his father after an ancient warrior) didn't want to dance but was pushed into it by his father.  The real Costa was a part of the film, playing himself as an older man, choreographing a piece about his life for a dance company in Cuba.  His younger self was also part of the film via television pieces about his career outside Cuba.

A Dog Called Money: A doco about the making of PJ Harvey's album, The Hope Demolition Project.  It follows Harvey through Kosovo, Syria, Afghanistan and the USA where she travelled with an Irish photojournalist and then into the studio where the songs she wrote in response to the things she saw were recorded in a specially-made room where the public could come and watch the recording process.  It was interesting, but even at 95 minutes, I felt like it was a little too long and slightly repetitive.

What are your goals this week?

Friday, July 26, 2019

Celebrate the Small Things 26-7-19




This post is part of Lexa Cain's blog hop, Celebrate the small things. Head on over there to sign up!

What am I celebrating this week?

I got more work done on the book I ripped apart last week.  After thinking I'd got it all wrong, I figured it out and went back to what I started doing last week.  I think it will work from here.  Think, being the operative word...

The film festival has started!  Always my favourite time of the year.  I have two weeks of movie-going paradise ahead of me and have already seen my first two films:

Maiden - a documentary about the first all-woman crew doing the Whitbread Round the World Yacht Race.  This was the gala opening night film and it didn't sound that appealing to me.  But I actually enjoyed it very much.  The film is well made, exciting, the women interviewed are interesting and articulate and the filmmakers used the limited amount of archive footage available to good effect.  I came out inspired to do something way outside my comfort zone - but definitely not being at sea for over 150 days!

You Don't Nomi - another doco, this time about Paul Verhoeven's much maligned film, Showgirls.  It was again, very interesting, asking the question about whether this film is actually just terrible, or if it's a kind of satire of terrible that's actually quite wonderful.  It positions the film within the entire catalogue of Verhoeven's films and shows how the same themes and motifs appear throughout.  It talks about how Elizabeth Berkley's career was basically destroyed by doing the film, and how it has become something of a cult film now, especially amongst the drag community who have wildly popular live performances based on the film.  I'm not convinced the film isn't just terrible - I remember it being horrible - but I would certainly be willing to go back and take another look at it after seeing this doco.

More films this weekend, so I will tell you about them on Monday.

What are you celebrating this week?

Wednesday, July 24, 2019

Books I've Loved: Bridge of Clay





Okay... So I think I've just found one of my new favourite books. You know that feeling, where you finish and you just want to turn around and start reading all over again? It doesn't happen that often, but when it does, it's breathtaking.

This is by the author of the super-successful The Book Thief. I liked that book very much, so when I saw this in the bookstore while I had a book voucher burning a hole in my pocket, I picked it up. And you know what? I liked it even more than that other book.

Interestingly, I didn't love this book right from the start. It took me quite a while to get into, and unusually, it took me almost a week to read too. But once I settled into the narrative style, and the fractured nature of the storytelling, well... it's well worth that initial struggle.

Bridge of Clay is about a family, the Dunbars. There are five sons, and at the beginning of the novel, they are living alone on the outskirts of Sydney, their mother dead and their father gone, location unknown. They are a rowdy bunch, fighting and scrapping and allowing their pets to pretty much run the household - even the old mule who isn't supposed to be inside, but somehow manages to get in whenever no one is looking.

The story is narrated by the oldest of these boys, Matthew, but the story isn't his, it's his brother Clay's. And it's his mother's. And his father's. And even the girl next door's, the girl Clay falls in love with.

It's a story of grief and love and of forgiveness and about building a bridge. It's about brothers and fathers and sons. It's about first love, and true love.

And it's beautiful.

But it isn't an easy read. The different stories unfold together, in beautifully written bite-sized chunks so no part is revealed quickly or in a linear way. The five brothers begin as one messy, snarling mess of boys and it takes some time before they become distinct, individual characters. And Matthew, the eldest, the one telling the story, takes the longest to get to know. I didn't actually feel like I got a handle on him until right toward the end of the book.

The style of writing initially felt distancing - it was like reading through a layer of gauze - but by the end, my heart was held firmly in the story's vice. Not everyone is going to like the style. It's heavy on metaphor and the descriptions, while beautiful, are sometimes too long-winded. The writing is often choppy and obscure. The whole book feels, at least to begin with, like a puzzle that needs piecing together.

There are references to other books, particularly The Oddysey and The Illiad, and a book about Michaelangelo called The Quarryman and this story mirrors themes and ideas from all three, but not in any way that's simple to follow or recognize.

But it's worth the effort. Oh boy, is it worth the effort! It's one I know I will come back to again and I'll be interested to see if the experience of reading it a second time is different, if some of the things I struggled with this time will be clearer the second time through.

I think I will be recommending this to everyone I know for a while, so I'll shut up about it here for now... Just go and read it. I want to have someone to talk to about how good it is.

But don't just listen to me. Here's the blurb:

The breathtaking story of five brothers who bring each other up in a world run by their own rules. As the Dunbar boys love and fight and learn to reckon with the adult world, they discover the moving secret behind their father’s disappearance.

At the center of the Dunbar family is Clay, a boy who will build a bridge—for his family, for his past, for greatness, for his sins, for a miracle.

The question is, how far is Clay willing to go? And how much can he overcome?

Sunday, July 21, 2019

Weekly Goals 22-7-19

After feeling like I'd been really productive in ripping apart that book on Friday, I kept working on it on Saturday.  Then I woke up at 3am on Sunday with the realization I'd done entirely the wrong thing.

So I scrapped about half the changes I'd made, and went back to figure out how I could fix the problems in a different way.  Which I don't believe I've done yet.  And now I'm wondering if the changes I made on Friday might have worked if I'd written a few extra bits in earlier on.

Damn, this writing thing is hard!

So this week, I plan to continue with this project.  I'll either ruin it entirely or manage to fix the problems.  Who knows?

The film festival starts on Thursday, so from then on, I won't have a whole lot of time to write or do anything else for a couple of weeks.  Maybe the time away will help solve all the story problems I'm dealing with at the moment.  I certainly hope so!

What are your goals this week?

Friday, July 19, 2019

Celebrate the Small Things 19-7-19




This post is part of Lexa Cain's blog hop, Celebrate the small things. Head on over there to sign up!

What am I celebrating this week?

I had two days off work this week, one to spend with the kids while they were on holiday, and one just for me.  And of course I used the 'me' day to write.

I had a super-productive writing day yesterday.  I didn't write the ending to Standing Too Close, but I did rip apart another book that's had issues and put it back together again (almost - I still have a little more work to do on it).  I've been having so much trouble with that ending it felt like a good idea to go and work on something else for a while.  Usually that helps me when I'm stuck.  Let's hope it's the case this time too.

Hoping to get a few more hours over the weekend to keep going because once the momentum is there, it's good to keep going.

The kids go back to school on Monday after two weeks of holidays in which they have done very little.  Hopefully it has recharged them for the term ahead.

What are you celebrating this week?