Yup. I started revising Sidewalks last night. I spent the second part of last week outlining the way I thought the story needs to go, and last night I dove in a worked my way through chapter one. It wasn't so bad. The early part of the book isn't. It's at about the halfway point things get funky and I'm going to have a lot of untangling to do.
So this morning I re-read my revised first chapter, and with much trepidation, posted it for my critique group to gnaw on. I've never been so nervous about letting my work out in the open! I feel like this book is my ugly baby and I've just taken it out in public for the first time. A couple of my CPs have already said they're going to read it tomorrow, so I'm just white knuckling my way through until then...
It's weird because I've never felt this way before. I'm usually champing at the bit to get my work in front of fresh eyes because I know how awesome my CPs are at finding the mistakes and flaws in it and offering solutions and fixes for them. But this book is probably closer to my heart than anything I've ever written before. Not that I haven't loved my other projects - I have. But this one's kind of special.
Have you ever had one project you've been terrified to show people?