It occurred to me the other day, that my attitude toward querying and sending out my writing work has changed dramatically in the past few years.
It used to be that I expected every query or contest entry to be the one. My work is fantastic and everyone will want it. It never occurred to me that people wouldn't see it that way. So I got a lot of rejections and boy did it hurt.
Now when I send a query or a requested manuscript, or enter a contest, I expect rejection. I don't have that spark of hope any more. I still love my stories, and I still want them out in the world, but after almost four years of querying and hustling to get my babies out there, I've become hard-wired to expect rejection. And it doesn't hurt so much any more.
I don't think this is a very healthy attitude to have, but I'm not sure how to get that spark back. I feel like the publishing journey has ground me down. I still love writing, but the whole trying to get published thing is really hard and soul destroying.
Do you feel this way too? Are you pre-programmed for rejection?